A Better 2016

2015 was a very challenging year for me and my family.

My wife pregnancy turned into complication in weeks 20, at the same time my father was diagnosed with end stage lung cancer.

My wife was unable to work from her week 22nd pregnancy, admitted to hospital a few times and finally need to deliver the baby at first day of week 28th of pregnancy. My baby was extremely premature and he was admitted to NICU upon delivery for more than 4 months.

My father fallen down injured one of his arm, the whole family daily routines turned haywire as my kids transportation to school and meals were rely on him. It took him 3 months to recover, and the cancer cells has weakened him over this period, he lost 12kg in 3 months time.

What I have gone through in 2015 was beyond imagination. I was exhausted, but I told myself that the 2 pillars of the family, my wife and my father were in trouble, both of them and the family need me, I am the backbone of them. Even though I gone through hell, I still need to keep going.

Despite of all the family issues, I still need to run my operation in my day time job. 2015 was also a very challenging year for Malaysia. I have been not resting for 24/7 for many months in a row.

There were tears, frustrations, hopelessness and worry in most of the nights.

There is no room for me to slow down, to think or consider, I just need to move forward.

There is no luxury for me to fall sick, no reason for me to rest.

I learn to accept. I cried a few occasions, while I were alone, driving back from hospital after visiting my baby. Never been so sad and being such hopeless in the past.

Everything becomes less relevant and not important to me except that I need to keep the family moving on while coping with the circumstances.

At my day time job, I need to run the operation like business as usual as there is no room for any slowdown.

Thanks God, my baby is home and healthy now. I learn to appreciate for being healthy.

As for my father, he is already 77-year-old, we are fighting the cancer disease with him. Make sure he eat healthy diet and eliminate sugar intake.

Lunar new year is the time for me to think over last year lessons and set right priority in the coming year.

Being healthy and fit is definitely my priority and I need to ensure all of my family members are well taken care off.

Life is short and none of us know what will happen next. Live life now and appreciate every moments.

Because life is too short to regret, I will pursue happiness, live a life that is worth living.

I am looking forward for a better 2016.

God bless!