Sunday, February 07, 2016

A Better 2016

2015 was a very challenging year for me and my family.

My wife pregnancy turned into complication in weeks 20, at the same time my father was diagnosed with end stage lung cancer.

My wife was unable to work from her week 22nd pregnancy, admitted to hospital a few times and finally need to deliver the baby at first day of week 28th of pregnancy. My baby was extremely premature and he was admitted to NICU upon delivery for more than 4 months.

My father fallen down injured one of his arm, the whole family daily routines turned haywire as my kids transportation to school and meals were rely on him. It took him 3 months to recover, and the cancer cells has weakened him over this period, he lost 12kg in 3 months time.

What I have gone through in 2015 was beyond imagination. I was exhausted, but I told myself that the 2 pillars of the family, my wife and my father were in trouble, both of them and the family need me, I am the backbone of them. Even though I gone through hell, I still need to keep going.

Despite of all the family issues, I still need to run my operation in my day time job. 2015 was also a very challenging year for Malaysia. I have been not resting for 24/7 for many months in a row.

There were tears, frustrations, hopelessness and worry in most of the nights.
There is no room for me to slow down, to think or consider, I just need to move forward.
There is no luxury for me to fall sick, no reason for me to rest.

I learn to accept. I cried a few occasions, while I were alone, driving back from hospital after visiting my baby. Never been so sad and being such hopeless in the past.

Everything becomes less relevant and not important to me except that I need to keep the family moving on while coping with the circumstances.

At my day time job, I need to run the operation like business as usual as there is no room for any slowdown.

Thanks God, my baby is home and healthy now. I learn to appreciate for being healthy.

As for my father, he is already 77-year-old, we are fighting the cancer disease with him. Make sure he eat healthy diet and eliminate sugar intake.

Lunar new year is the time for me to think over last year lessons and set right priority in the coming year.

Being healthy and fit is definitely my priority and I need to ensure all of my family members are well taken care off.

Life is short and none of us know what will happen next. Live life now and appreciate every moments.

Because life is too short to regret, I will pursue happiness, live a life that is worth living.

I am looking forward for a better 2016.

God bless!

Saturday, October 17, 2015

Day 140 - Discharge today

Baby Hao, you did well and finally graduated from Malaya University Hospital today.

It was a long journey. 140 days period, near to 5 months long.

You fought well for the past 140 days. You grew from 640g to 3000g today.

It was a tough journey. You have went through it and become a tough guy.

In another 30 days, you will need to go through a hernia repair procedure.

We hope the journey ahead will be smoother and you will catch up all the development in a few months time.

Welcome home boy!

God's bless!

Monday, October 12, 2015

Day 135 - Breathing by yourself

Boy, it was a big surprise when papa visited you in the evening. You are off from the oxygen air blender.

The professor of respiration system has decided to take off your nasal cap as you are able to breathe at 21% oxygen. We thought the flow setting at 4.0 is high, actually it is set based on your weight. Based on your current weight, setting below 6.0 will not be able to assist you. This professor believe that you will be able to breathe by yourself and yes, you are doing fine.

The standby doctor visited you few rounds today to monitor your situation. Your lung is not that bad, commented by the evening standby doctor. The good sign is your are very active. Yes, you are active and demanding, it causes your mom restless nights and both your sisters and papa have to stay late every night to assist your mom.

Your mom care and love is the main factor that help you to recover fast. Your sisters supports is also serve as important element.

Your mom sleep less than 3 hours per day for straights 9 days and she is not able to catch her sleep for more than 2 hours per episode as she need to feed you every 3 hours. It is definitely very tiring and she is able to sustain because of her unconditional love to you.

Your sisters are exhausted also. They have been travelling to hospitals every night without fails and stay up until late nights for continuous 130 days plus. Most of the time they are sleeping in the car during the journey back home. They are 10-year-old and 8-year-old now. Both are adorable kids.

By the time you read this post, your mom may be at her 50s, and your sisters shall be at 20s. Please love them and listen to them if you are a teenager.

If you are already an adult, please take care of them. Especially your mom. The unconditional love from her is the greatest remedy to you.

Being healthy is so important.
If you are a teenager now, please spend time in your academic, sports and hobbies. This is the golden chance to acquire knowledge and explore your strengths. Do not spend time in video games and try to be an adult.

If you are an adult now, do not pursue material stuffs like getting fancy car, worse still pursuing those car accessories. Focus at your day time career and spend time with your mom and sisters. Last but not least, exercise.

To get you to breathe without oxygen needed 135 days. Don't you agree being healthy is vital?

Stay strong boy!

God's bless!


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